I’m so so tired

I don’t know what I am writing or for what purpose. I am just writing. I am very tired. Not physically but mentally and emotionally. I feel that I have nothing to give anymore. I feel that I have lost any desire for anything. I am like an exploding bomb exploding all the time and hurting the ones I care about the most. I am so tired of that too. I am tired of my life and I have given up on any hope for me. I have tried so many times to change things. People won’t believe me but I really have tried. I have gone to therapists, I have taken the medications, I have read self help books and I have tried practicing them. I have tried writing my thoughts and burning them or tearing the papers out. I have done so much to change things and I am still in limbo. I am even so tired to write now so I will just stop here.