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I can’t even breathe

Posted by DreamSharer on January 30, 2015

My chest has been so tight.  I can barely breathe. I wanted to talk to someone but there is no one I could talk to. I feel lost and alone and have no idea what to do. I just seem to be a problem to people around me just by existing in this world. Whatever I do and whatever I say, just end up getting more people upset with me.

 

I’ve been feeling so bottled up. I feel like with every minute that passes, I am just holding back my tears because I feel like I am about to crumble. My chest closes up at times and I just feel like I can’t breathe anymore. All I wanted was to be able to be myself and to be loved for who I am. But I feel like being myself hurts people. I don’t want to hurt anyone.

 

Confronting does not work because I always get the same standard answer  “I didn’t meant it.” If you don’t mean it then why say it or do it?

 

At this point I feel so lost and not able to see my road ahead clearly. I feel like I am at a dead end and I don’t know what’s next. I can’t take any of my past actions back. I can only deal with what is happening right now.

 

I am just tired of being stressed out all the time. I just want a break. I have no idea what to do next. I can’t even think anymore, my mind is blank and I feel I am on the verge of a mental breakdown.

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